Mom Brain

What I have discovered through Motherhood is that ‘mom brain’ is actually a thing. There are different levels to this feeling – but my best description of it is a fog. I feel like my brain doesn’t completely function on a clear level- there is a sort of haze/fog that resides within.

I was at my Doctor today to see if the fog is in anyway related to hormones and how I can feel more ‘refreshed’…if that is even possible! Today I had a vitamin and amino acid IV drip. I have had these injections before, but never have they given me any form of a boost. So today we took it to the next level. I sat for a good 45 minutes as I was boosted up with a concoction of goods that in turn will hopefully up my energy levels, helping the mom brain, only temporarily but a place to start to see if this is in fact the reason for the spacey head. We will see if the energy soars from this magic potion I am hopeful but not holding my breath.  IMG_0393

I realize that sleep is a hot commodity that comes and goes depending on the day and the child. I can’t remember the last time I actually felt RESTED. This is such a foreign concept to me that I can’t remember the last time I woke up NOT TIRED. Is it actually possible to wake up feeling rested!? I’m serious. This is not a feeling I can remember.  I know that parts of this come with the territory of, M.O.M. But I also realize that without ever feeling truly rested my body can’t actually restore.

So now, with Doctor by my side, we are in search of the reason for my fog. And hopefully through the search, I will find restorative energy and mind.

 

Balancing Act

~“Life is a Balance of holding on and letting go” ~ Anonymous

2015 is all about BALANCE. This is represented in SO many different ways- and oddly enough- a fairly knew concept to me. I am one that can’t sit still very well: Guilt actually consumes me when I feel I am not doing enough. Hence why BALANCE has entered my mind…and vocabulary.

“An even distribution of weight enabling someone or something to remain upright and steady” is how Google defines Balance.

To some, balance may be an obvious; I am going to go out on a limb here and say that at some point, everyone had to check himself or herself in order to find their balance in life- a type of “Aha” moment for the likes of Oprah.

Prioritizing my life to ensure the important gets done and allowing what is not to move aside, is already allowing me better balance in life.

At this time of year, the word RESOLUTION keeps circulating. I am steering clear of this word as, yes I have a list of things I want to achieve and do better at, but every step that I have taken in my 32 years of being has brought me to this place and time. I am going to integrate these personal goals into my way of life. They are apart of how I want to better myself, who I want to be. I feel like a grown up finally. Yes, that may sound funny, as I am married (for almost 10 years) and have three children, but I finally feel that I can live MY life: I can say yes when I want to and no when I don’t. That if I like ME, than I am being the best ME I can…and that’s all right! My husband seems to think so too. ;-p

Is this a form of balance? I think so.

Balance is a word that even by definition speaks of weight. Weight is something that most people struggle with in some form. Be it wanting to lose some, gain some or maintain. I am no exemption to this. I have struggled with weight on many levels through my years. Recently I came to a realization that, without finding balance within myself, I truly feel I wouldn’t have come to. There is always going to be something about me that I am going to want to change- something that I wished was different. These things however do not define me. Especially when it comes to weight and image. A number on a scale does not define me and I will not to allow this to rule my mood and life. I will take those hours that I could sweat it away solo in a gym and enjoy the moments with my family and friends. I will hit the trails for a run with some girlfriends- because not only does the exercise make me feel better, but also I am able to catch up with friends. I will hit up my local fitness facilities because I have FUN there! I will be healthy and active- forever and always- but the number that it shows on the scale is irrelevant when I know I am doing the best I can. I will never be a size 0, and I have learnt that I also never actually want to be! I have been home to three babies; I enjoy eating and drinking- and although all in moderation is a good motto to follow…the truth is, I ENJOY LIFE!

I have an amazing family. I have wonderful friends. And I can honestly say, that I like the person that I am. 2015 forward is about finding the balance to do and to accomplish all that I want to have in my life. Life isn’t going to end as I learn to say ‘no.’ I am going to love my way through life, maintaining a happy balance along the way.

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